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In the Valley of the Shadow of Death with Guest Sharon Hinck Write from the Deep podcast with Karen Ball and Erin Taylor YoungWhat if God took away your ability to write? Guest Sharon Hinck has walked through some deep valleys, and she knows firsthand how insecurities and the enemy’s lies hit hardest in the midst of our darkest times. But she also knows without a doubt that God is there, even through the mystery of unanswered questions, turning the darkness to light. Listen in as she shares how God led her into a profound new understanding of her extraordinary worth.

About Sharon Hinck

Award-winning author Sharon Hinck writes “stories for the hero in all of us,” about ordinary people on extraordinary faith journeys. She has been honored with three Carol awards, and the 2020 and 2021 Christy Award in the Speculative Fiction category. She has experience as a church youth worker, a choreographer and ballet teacher, a church organist, and an adjunct professor for Creative Writing MFA students. One day she’ll figure out what to be when she grows up, but meanwhile she’s pouring her imagination into writing. When she isn’t wrestling with words, Sharon enjoys speaking for conferences, retreats, and church groups.

Thanks to our sponsors on Patreon, we’re able to offer an edited transcript of the podcast!

Erin: Welcome, listeners. We are delighted that you’re here with us in the deep, and today we’re continuing our interview with Sharon Hinck.

Oh my gosh, you guys, this was such a great interview, and I’m looking forward to you hearing more. So we’re gonna jump right in!  

Sharon: As someone who has always been a bit of an overachiever in personality, God had to do a lot in me to remind me that just being his is all I need to be. That it isn’t what I accomplish. It’s not how many books I get written. How many words I write that day.

The story of the Dancing Realm series is another miracle of his mercy because I had gotten very, very ill after several books came out with Bethany House and Nav Press. I was just going gangbusters, then I got very sick and was actually mostly bedridden for two years.

I had tons of cognitive loss, which is terrifying when you’re a writer, you can’t find words. 

Erin: Yeah. 

Sharon: And physical weakness. I thought, “That’s it. I can’t write anymore.” 

Years went by. Eventually I was writing devotions because I could do little tidbits. Then God used that. I eventually got a little bit stronger mentally, a little stronger physically. 

I was talking to my agent and he said, “You used to be a dancer. Why don’t you write about a story world that dance is involved?”

I said, “Oh, I don’t know.” 

But I started to play, and it was difficult. It felt choppy, so I was afraid the writing would be choppy. You know, it was sentence by sentence. Writing in little pieces. It didn’t flow, but God enabled me to write that series. 

Then it was terrifying when the first book came out. I thought, “People are gonna say, ‘Oh, we used to like her stuff. What happened to her?'”

I was literally biting my nails, and so to have it well received was so meaningful to me.

Karen: I love how God works that way. And it’s predictable how the enemy works. On the very heels of a miracle from God, the enemy steps in and says, “Well, maybe he helped you do this, but it’ll be crap. Nobody will wanna read it.”

All those insecurities come up, and he’s doing everything he can to steal God’s glory in this miracle that God’s done and to steal our peace in the midst of God’s miracle. If we could just keep our eyes focused on him and ignore those stupid voices inside of us that are speaking condemnation and fear and insecurity. 

You know, we’ve been through a really horrific time here in the last couple of months. Things happened that I ended up feeling really stupid about. Things that I fell for. We were conned twice by moving brokers and there was the potential that we were going to lose $11,000. 

I spent so much time just being angry with myself until my husband said, “These guys are pros at cunning people. It doesn’t matter how smart you are, they’re pros at what they’re doing.”

Finally I came to the end of myself in all of it because I’ve always prided myself on being capable, being able to handle a lot of things. I finally came to the place where I was just telling God, “You take it. I can’t do it, God. You take it.”

We may end up still losing about, I don’t know, $1,500. But that’s incredibly better than $11,000. We’re doing something different, but it’s coming together and we actually will be able to move out of this house and close when we need to without any problems.

So, more and more lately, I’m just like, “Father, just show me what to do. Show me what to do, because I got nothing.” 

Sharon: And give yourself grace. Because I do the same thing. I mentioned earlier, before we started the recording, how I struggle with technology. I get mad at myself and I feel like I’m so dumb. How do I not understand this stuff? 

You would give others grace. You would not condemn a friend who got conned. We need to give ourselves grace and that’s what God taught me as I had time away from writing, when I couldn’t write. Not only did I feel useless, I felt like a burden to the people around me.

Not only was I not producing and I wasn’t accomplishing great things for God’s kingdom, which is what I always want to be doing, but I was actually making people spend time helping me, which was wasting their time, in my opinion.

Karen: I can tell you, that’s got to be the most difficult thing for any of us who are able to do things is asking for help. Like you, I struggled a lot with health issues in the last five or ten years and realizing, or being able to accept the phrase, “Yes, there was a time when I could do that, but I cannot do that now.”

Sharon: Oh, it’s hard. It’s so hard. 

Karen: It’s hard to go to someone when you’re the one who’s usually offering help to people and teaching people and mentoring people, and you’re coming in and saying, “Could you come to my house and help me pack a box?” 

Sharon: Yeah! And again, it’s in those places where we see our need. My pastor recently, in a sermon, talked about the story, the parable, where the man goes to his neighbor and is pounding on the door in the middle of the night, “Oh, I don’t have enough food. I have a guest. Could you lend me something?”

He said the hero of the story is that man going and confessing his need and asking for help.

Karen: Yes. 

Sharon: That was a new insight for me. I thought, “Oh! Hey, finally, I could be the hero of the story because I’m needy. I’m needy. I can say that!”

I used to worry that I was Miss Needy-Pants all the time. 

Karen: Now you’re just Miss Needy-Hero. 

Sharon: That’s right! It can be very courageous to admit need. I see that with all the friends that I have seen suffer in these past years. With loss of loved ones, with depression, with anxiety. When they’re honest about those places of pain and need and share that, it helps others who are hurting. I love that verse, I do my bad paraphrase of it: that he comforts us with his comfort so that we can comfort others with the same comfort with which we were comforted.

It is so true. And then we can be there for each other. We aren’t the heroes of our own story. We just point to the hero, which is Jesus. 

Karen: Absolutely! Preach it, Sister!  

Erin: Sharon, you had said that God taught you that just being his was enough. What do you think was one of the final straws that helped you realize that? That really pulled that together for you?

Sharon: Well, I have to confess it’s a daily battle. 

Karen: Yeah. 

Sharon: It has not been resolved. That issue is not fully resolved. But, getting to that point of, “I may never be able to write again. I may never be able to read again…” I still struggle to read for pleasure, which is a huge loss. I’ve been a voracious reader since I was four years old.

My critique partners would send me chapters and I could edit and critique because it used a different part of my brain. 

Karen: Exactly. 

Sharon: But I couldn’t read for pleasure. That’s still a struggle for me, although I’ve started to be able to do audiobooks. But all these things that defined me—I thought all these things defined me—having them taken away really gave me a chance to rest in God and know he loves me, whether I do another thing or not. 

I spoke last year. In the spring I did a keynote through zoom for a writer’s conference. I started out by saying, “This is gonna sound very radical: it’s okay to not write.”

Karen: Yeah. 

Sharon: Because we get so caught up in, “Oh, I have to do this.” And we compare to other people and what they’re accomplishing. Having God strip me down to being useless to him and then realizing he still loved me…he doesn’t love me based on me doing stuff for him. I mean, intellectually, I knew that, but I absorbed it in a deeper way through those years of illness. 

Karen: Intellectually, we know that for others. And we teach that to others. 

Sharon: Yes, exactly. 

Karen: But for us, that’s just a bitter pill to swallow. But one of the things that Erin and I teach at writer’s conferences, both when we teach together and we teach separate, is this isn’t about writing. This task that God has given us isn’t about writing. It’s about obedience. And it’s about honoring God in what we’re doing. 

If our book never gets published, you still have been obedient. That’s what matters. 

And if you have been published and suddenly you can’t write anymore, are you being obedient in the midst of that experience? God isn’t taking away your dream. God is refining you and giving you a new, deeper, more profound dream of just being his. 

Sharon: To be more closely connected to him is a gift that doesn’t compare. I mean, no writing contract, no award, no anything compares to getting to know him more intimately. And we have that blessing sometimes in the deep, and sometimes in the dark places, and the valley. 

Erin: What I love is that in this situation with the Dream of Kings book, your obedience to not write led to a beautiful time with your mom. It led to lots of other grief, of course, but then it did turn around and lead to writing again. To another book.

It doesn’t always work that way. But sometimes it does, and in this case it did. That’s gonna be really exciting to have that book. You listeners out there, this book will be available on pre-order when this podcast comes out. It’s Dream of Kings, and I’m looking forward to reading that. 

Karen: Me too. 

Erin: I actually read your Dancing Realms series as well. 

Sharon: I’m always so surprised when someone other than my mom or my husband have read my books! Thank you, Erin. 

Erin: What I wanted to say, too, about it is that I thought the premise was really neat. That whole idea of dance being so important in that world. I mean, that was just a really cool idea that hadn’t come up that I had seen before. I thought it was a fascinating premise. 

I also liked the fact that, you know, sometimes I think when people write a series, people will love the first book. Then with the next few books that come along, people are like, “Well, good, we wanna finish the story.” But the first book seems to be the real hit, the best book.

With you, of course the books were good, but I actually liked the last book best. I mean, I thought that was where things really like… well, I don’t want to spoil it for readers. It was just a really good final book of a series.

Sharon: Oh, thank you!  

Erin: It gets my recommendation. 

Sharon: Cool. Along with what Karen said about the enemy loving to whisper lies to us, I actually had a dream around the time the third book came out where I was talking to someone and they said, “Yeah, the first two were okay. But that third book has no plot.” 

I woke up sweating and just totally convinced, “Oh no, the book is out there now and it has no plot!” 

Karen: I don’t know why we’re so quick to believe the enemy lies. I just…

Erin: Says the person who’s now got all these bills that she has to pay, because she got taken in. I mean, it’s because that’s who we. 

Karen: No, no, I’m saying, I don’t know why we believe them. I recognize that I’m right there with them!  

Erin: It’s just dumb on our part. But we do. We just do. I mean, maybe it’s just so that we know that we really still need God.

Sharon: Yeah. 

Karen: I don’t think it’s dumb, actually. I think that it’s human. 

Erin: Good point. 

Karen: I think that the voice of the enemy is seductive and impactful, and God speaks in that small, still whisper. We have to listen so hard to hear God’s voice over the cacophony of the enemy’s lies being thrown at us.

If I’ve seen nothing else over these last several weeks, I’ve seen how the enemy just brings it from all directions and in all manner of doing it. I sit there and I think to myself that the enemy is so obvious in his battle against us. Of course, ABC happened because God was doing a great work. So the enemy came in to distract and do everything to keep me from looking at God and resting in God. 

Once I finally realized, “Okay, this is another attack,” I went back to that place that I was before and just saying, “God, I got nothing. You have to handle this because I cannot do this.”

There’s so much peace in recognizing it. 

Sharon: Yeah. Another thing that I’ve been realizing is, through my character’s journey in Dream of Kings, she’s always trying to find a purpose that would make all the losses worthwhile. And she’s not finding that. And to come to the realization that God may not explain himself to us. And that’s okay. He is good. He is working out a purpose. 

Karen: He’s God. It’s not like he owes us anything. Let alone an explanation. 

Sharon: That’s right. I feel like sometimes we’re secret agents and we operate on a need-to-know basis. And God doesn’t think we need to know everything he’s doing behind the scenes. But we can trust he’s doing way beyond what we can imagine behind the scenes. 

That’s what my character Jolan found throughout Dream of Kings. Things that she couldn’t even imagine that The Provider, as she called him, was doing in that world.

Karen: Right. 

Sharon: But yeah, it’s easier when you can see a direct purpose. “Oh, my car died. There was an accident a mile down the road that I would’ve been in, but my car died. God used that to protect me. Yay. A bad thing happened. I see the good purpose. Yay.” 

But a lot of times we aren’t given that and we have to walk by faith. Faith that God is love, and faith that he has a purpose, and faith that he is with us in it, and he is transforming the pain into something beautiful. 

Karen: Exactly. 

Erin: Yeah. I think the deal is that we don’t have the wisdom to understand. Or the judgment to understand what would be worthwhile anyway. We want to know, but we are just going to compare it to our own human thinking of what is worthwhile. So God’s just like, “Don’t even go there.”

It’s like trying to explain to my golden retriever why she can’t have a bunch of water right before she goes to sleep at night. She’s just not gonna get it. 

I guess that’s where we are human and God is God. If we could understand what made something worthwhile, we would be God and we’re not. 

Karen: And God is telling us, “Don’t worry about understanding. Be it peace. Understanding isn’t the be all and the end all. Peace. Be at peace. My peace I give to you. Not peace like the world gives, but my peace I give to you.” 

Erin: Yes. 

Sharon: Amen. Oh, I love talking with you guys. I feel like I’m in church. 

Erin: We’re coming to the end of our time, so I was going to ask you if you have any final words of wisdom or encouragement you wanted to leave with our listeners. 

Sharon: Well, I know that most of your listeners are writers and they want to be writing from the heart, writing for God. I would say just what you said earlier. It’s about following his lead. Sometimes it’s okay to not write. Sometimes he calls us to write. Sometimes he calls us to write an unexpected thing, or sometimes the theme of a story changes. 

It’s fun when we can see how he uses life circumstances in our stories, but sometimes we won’t see it. All of your listeners who are writers, get ready for that wonderful day when we’re all in heaven and someone comes up and says, “I was struggling with X, Y, and Z, and I read this novel you wrote, and that character went through a journey like I did, and God used that.”

Isn’t that gonna be a fun party? When we find out that he’s actually working through these humble stories that we’ve struggled so hard to write?  

Karen: Right. It’s gonna be wonderful. Well, Sharon, we’re out time. It’s been delightful to talk with you. It really has. I told you that you didn’t need to be afraid. You did a great job.

Sharon: You guys are so awesome. 

Karen: We’re so delighted with what you’ve shared with us and with our listeners. Friends, let’s just continue to pray for each other. To lift each other up in this time of darkness and struggle, and work to remember that what we need to do is leave it to God and rest in him because that’s what will carry us through.

Erin: Amen. 

Sharon: Amen.

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171 – In the Valley of the Shadow of Death with Guest Sharon Hinck, Part 1

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In the Valley of the Shadow of Death with Guest Sharon Hinck Part 1 Write from the Deep podcast with Karen Ball and Erin Taylor Young

Are you in a deep valley? Do you feel alone? Rejoice! God is there! Our guest Sharon Hinck can prove it from her valley experiences. Join us as she shares what she experienced, and the wonder of what God did in her life and writing.

About Sharon Hinck

Award-winning author Sharon Hinck writes “stories for the hero in all of us,” about ordinary people on extraordinary faith journeys. She has been honored with three Carol awards, and the 2020 and 2021 Christy Award in the Speculative Fiction category. She has experience as a church youth worker, a choreographer and ballet teacher, a church organist, and an adjunct professor for Creative Writing MFA students. One day she’ll figure out what to be when she grows up, but meanwhile she’s pouring her imagination into writing. When she isn’t wrestling with words, Sharon enjoys speaking for conferences, retreats, and church groups.

Thanks to our sponsors on Patreon, we’re able to offer an edited transcript of the podcast!

Erin: Welcome, listeners. We’re so excited that you’re here with us because we like you. And because we have a guest!

Karen: Our guest is Sharon Hinck, and I’m sure many of you know her. She writes what she calls stories for the hero in all of us, and she does a phenomenal job with that. She writes about ordinary people on extraordinary faith journeys. I love that.

Her books are known for their authenticity, their emotional range, and spiritual depth. I mean, you talk about a trifecta in fiction? That’s outstanding. She’s written humorous contemporary fiction, women’s fiction, the ground breaking Sword of Lyric fantasy series, and her new Dancing Realms series.

She’s been honored with a Christy finalist medal, three Carol awards and a 2020 Christian award in the visionary category for her fantasy novel Hidden Current. That’s about as impressive as it gets.

Erin: Indeed.

Karen: She says when she isn’t wrestling with words, she enjoys serving as an adjunct professor for the Creative Writing MFA program at Concordia University.

Again, impressive. She also shares with conferences, retreats, and church groups. Sharon and her family make their home in Minnesota.

Sharon: Ya, sure, you betcha!

Karen: I’m married to a Norski, so I know all about that.

Sharon: Ah, you know.

Karen: Uff da!

Erin: Oh my goodness. Sharon, we are glad to have you all the way from Minnesota.

Sharon: It’s great to be here. Thank you.

Erin: Let’s just jump right in, like one of those Minnesota lakes, right? The Land of 10,000 Lakes? What does the deep mean to you?

Sharon: Well, I’ve been thinking about this question. I’ve listened to the podcast, which I love and love this thought of what the deep means.

I was thinking one of the deepest places that I have gone with God and seen him at work is in the valley—which is deep, valleys are deep—the valley of the shadow of death. That is the place I found myself, and many people found themselves, in these past few years as loved ones have gone ahead to heaven.

And not just the loss of death. I think there’s also death of careers, death of health, death of visions, death of all kinds of things people have dealt with these past few years. But for me, I call Dream of Kings my pandemic book because I started writing it in the pandemic.

I was really looking to play with the notion of biblical inspiration. I do that with a lot of my fantasy novels. I take a character or a story, or even a very obscure Bible verse, and then I look at it from a different angle and put it in the fantasy universe that I create to gain some new insights. To ask story questions and to learn more about God’s nature.

Karen: Mm-hmm.

Sharon: So I was playing with this idea of someone who was a dream teller, and I made it a woman: Jolan the Dream Teller of Norgard. I think I was probably inspired by a Minnesota winter when I started the book. Jolan is betrayed by her own people, her guild, and she’s sold to an enemy country. So you can see kind of where the inspiration came from.

Because of that, I assumed my theme would be about forgiveness, seeing how what they meant for evil God meant for good, and how God works out good.

What I didn’t realize was the way God would shape that theme much more into the avenue of how he is with us even in loss. It played out in my life in that I had written about 80,000 words and life was difficult. I have chronic health challenges, which keep me mostly home bound and I struggle quite a bit.

My mom was battling Alzheimer’s, and I was trying to care for her. But I was still plugging away at this book because that’s what God’s called me to do: write. I can still do that even when I’m stuck in bed, I can write.

Then Mom fell and broke her hip.

Erin: Oh no.

Sharon: She had surgery, hip replacement, and went to transitional care. We couldn’t visit for quite a while because they were trying to protect patients, so you had to wait several weeks. On the day I would be able to go and be with her again, transitional care called and said, “She was unresponsive this morning when we went into her room. We think she had a stroke. We’ve sent her to the hospital.”

I’m, like, shaking. I get to the hospital. They only allow one family member in, because this was in the midst of everything.

Erin: At least they let you in.

Sharon: Yes, at that point, I was able to go in. But I felt so alone. So scared. I had her medical directive. We had talked about it when she was lucid. I knew her wishes. But there they are asking me, “Well, you know, her brain, there’s this blockage. If you don’t make a decision soon, she’s gonna lose all function. What would she want?”

I’m looking through all of the directive and it was really hard to discern. I said, “She spunky. Yes, she has Alzheimer’s but she still laughs. She still loves life.”

They said, “We can put a catheter in and try to pull out this blockage in the brain, and she might recover. But you know, she has broken hip. She’s probably in a lot of pain, so maybe just let her go?”

Oh, that was an agonizing choice.

But I said, “No, I think at this point we should try.”

So then they did the surgery. She came through it, but it didn’t make a difference. She was paralyzed, unable to speak very much. And she was paralyzed on the side opposite of the broken hip. It was pretty rough.

I was there with her in intensive care. Then we worked with hospice to get her back to her apartment that she shared with my stepdad. I was able to be there and care for her. And here’s where it was interesting, because you know what it’s like as a dedicated writer, you think, ” I’ll just keep working somehow.”

Karen: Right.

Sharon: I brought my laptop and thought, “While she’s dozing in between me giving her her medication and caring for her and wiping her forehead and doing whatever else she needs, I’ll keep working on this novel.”
Within five minutes, I realize that’s not what God’s calling me to right now.

Karen: Right.

Sharon: I thought, “This is a sacred time. She is on the threshold of heaven and I need to just be here with her.”

So I set it aside and thankfully I had plenty of time. I wasn’t on a tight deadline. I wasn’t being irresponsible. But I could set that aside and just be with mom. After several weeks she went to heaven. We had precious time together. I played her favorite music. I read her favorite Psalms. We watched episodes of Colombo, her favorite TV show.

Karen: (Imitating Colombo) “Eh, eh, just one more question…”

Sharon: I kept joking I was gonna buy her a raincoat like his.

Karen: There you go!

Sharon: It was a precious time, but also heartbreaking. Then came cleaning out the apartment and sorting through her things and planning a funeral and helping my stepdad move.

I was so beaten down by grief that I really thought, “Maybe I’m done. Maybe I won’t be able to pick up the threads of the book again.”

As I said, I was about 80,000 words in to what was planned to be 120,000, because it’s an epic fantasy. And I thought, “I just don’t have that in me.”

The grief counselor I talked to had said, “Don’t make any decisions the whole first year after a significant loss.”

Why I talk about this valley of the shadow of death? We had six significant losses in six months. The same day Mom had a stroke, my uncle passed away. We had friends, we had other relatives, Ted’s brother. I mean, those months… And I know it wasn’t just me, which somehow didn’t comfort me that the whole world was dealing with grief.

Karen: It doesn’t. When you go through grief, nothing comforts you for a while. But then God gets through. I hear you.

Sharon: Yeah. It almost augmented the grief, knowing that so many in the world were also going through that kind of heart-wrenching loss.

Erin: Yeah.

Sharon: I went to a writer’s conference a few months later and was teaching. God often makes me teach the things I need to hear because apparently I only listen to myself. I don’t know.

I came home and said, “It’s time to look back. I’ll just open the manuscript and see what God wants to do.”

And he just empowered and inspired and I wrote and wrote and wrote. But what was weird is that the themes weren’t what I thought they were going to be.

Karen: Right.

Sharon: I didn’t even see it till my critique buddies were reading it. They said, “You’re talking about loss of identity, loss of role, loss of loved ones, loss of freedom. That’s the theme here.”

That just always amazes me how God’s able to do that. How he’s able to use these things. I love Corrie Ten Boom’s quote, “There is no pit so deep that God’s love is not deeper still.”

So my character is in a very deep pit, literally. Imprisoned, treated unjustly, suffering loss. One of my favorite things, and it’s just a God thing, is that she was describing her losses as if it was a shelf of books, and she would pull out each volume and page through it and feel sad and feel that loss.

But by the end of the story, she’s able to mentally open each of those, and the pages are gilded with the grace of God as she sees his mercy in it all. If that makes sense.

Karen: It does. It’s a beautiful image.

Erin: What’s so interesting to me is that obviously there’s a difficult, difficult experience—this valley of the shadow of death. Very difficult. But I truly think that the book became a different book. You stopped at 80,000 words. If in some way you would’ve just tried to push through it, it wouldn’t have been the book that God wanted to happen.

After those trials, after that groaning, and after that time of grief and learning, then you were able to write with so much more depth of feeling. It just made the book a different book. I love how God does that.

Sharon: I do, too.

Karen: It made the book a better book. It made it a deeper book, and probably a far more profound book.

Erin: Yeah.

Sharon: I love what God shows us about himself in those deep places, because he was so tender in so many ways. I just saw his hand shaping situations when I felt so broken and beaten down. He was there. But not only is he with us in those dark places, he transforms the dark places. He creates beautiful things, and he fulfills purposes.

In Dream of Kings, which parallels biblical dream tellers, God’s also able to show that what you went through had a purpose that’s much bigger than you knew.

Karen: Yeah, I’ve always said that in God’s economy nothing is wasted. Everything that happens to us in God’s economy is an element of our refinement, or teaching us, or blessing us. The losses can actually bless us once we get through the pain.

It’s just a testimony to his goodness, and like you said, his tenderness.

Sharon: Yeah, and I think when we’re in the deep place… Before you called, I was reciting Psalm 121, which was one of my mom’s favorites. “I lift up my eyes to the hills. From whence does my help come? My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth.” RSV

I think when we’re in the deep we look up. We look for God instead of our own power and our own wisdom. I tend to be a little self-reliant, so when things are going well I rely on me. But when I’m in the deep places, I have to look up. I have to look for him.

Erin: Yeah. I also like the idea here that you had a ministry of presence with your mom. I think we can get so focused on our writing, and our doing, and our this and our that. Sometimes we forget the most important thing: a ministry of presence.

Let’s be present when we’re making dinner with our family. Or, let’s be present when we’re watching our kid play soccer, or whatever we’re doing. Or, let’s be present with someone who’s hurting. You know, whatever it is, those things are important, too.

Writing is important, but what we learn, or what we can give or offer through our ministry of presence, it’s priceless.

Karen: Amen!

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170 – Do You Really Know Who God Is? Part 5

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Do You Really Know Who God Is? Part 5 Write from the Deep podcast with Karen Ball and Erin Taylor YoungAre we hearing—and worshiping—God as he truly is, or only as we imagine him to be? Why does this matter? It’s so easy—and dangerous!—to let our own ideas of who God is take center stage over who he’s actually revealed himself to be in his Word. When we do that, we’ve made up our own god to serve, love, and pray to. There’s a word for that: Idolatry.

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Erin: Welcome, listeners, into the deep with us. We are so glad you’re here. If you’ve been with us for a while, you know that we just finished a great interview with Shadia Hrichi. She writes Bible studies. Her joy and her excitement over studying God and his Word was such a delight for us.

We want to keep that spark going in this next podcast with a continuation of our series on God’s attributes. I cannot stress this enough. We need to know God. The real God. To paraphrase what Eugene Peterson wrote in The Message, we need to be faced with God as he is, not as we imagine him to be.

This is a danger, guys. We cannot just imagine the kind of god that we want. And it’s so easy to do that, but it becomes a god we’ve made up and not the God that he revealed truly to us of himself. We can’t just imagine a god or make it up, because that’s an idol. So I want to encourage us again to know God as he revealed himself. As he truly is.

Karen: Let’s go ahead and consider the first attribute, which is one that I have been so thankful for over the last several months.

God is never overwhelmed by emotions

Karen: As many of you know, my husband and I are in the process of moving to Washington from Oregon. Selling our home, buying a home.

Erin: That’s not easy.

Karen: Oh my gosh! It’s been a turbulent time, I can tell you. And here’s what I love about God, this characteristic of God: God is never overwhelmed by emotions. Never.

Everything in God is perfect, and that includes emotions. For us, though, for humans, our experience of emotions is imperfect. Meaning we can be overwhelmed and influenced by them. And boy howdy have Don and I been influenced by them lately.

The emotions we humans experience have been given to us by God, because they’re a part of who he is and help reveal himself to us. But just as our understanding of God is incomplete and imperfect, our understanding of emotions is the same.

Yes, God has emotions, but with him, they are perfect. They are never overwhelming, and he is not controlled by them.

With Don and me trying to communicate, I say something, and the way he hears it is so warped by his perceptions and his emotions that it comes out the total opposite of what I was saying. So he gets frustrated, and he comes back, then I hear through my own filters and warp things, and then it just gets really ugly.

That never happens with God. Because we know that he understands us, even in the midst of these messy, confused, turbulent emotions. But we never ever have to worry about him being arbitrary or moody for no reason or any of a host of other things that we humans not only experience, but allow to influence us.

This is why it’s so important to realize that emotions are seldom, if ever, a good measuring stick for us for reality. Our emotions cloud our judgment, cloud the things that we say and the things that we do. But emotions will never cloud God’s judgment.

His emotions are as stable and unchangeable as he is, which means he will never, ever stop loving us. We can trust him without reservation. He doesn’t communicate in hidden messages. He doesn’t base his love for us on how many books we’ve published, how many books we’ve sold, or what our marketing programs are.

His love for us is simply based on who he is and that we are his creation and his children through Christ. His emotions are stable. We can trust him in every facet of what we’re doing.

God is our Rock

Erin: Following right up on when we’re talking about God being stable with his emotions, God is also our rock. That’s stable, right?

I love the imagery in Psalm 18:2. It says, “The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer, my God, my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.”

Isaiah 26:4 says, “Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord God is an everlasting rock.”

I love the imagery of rock. It makes me think of strength and refuge, solid and unfailing. There is just nothing in this world that’s certain or solid. Look at the stock market lately. It’s up, it’s down, and down some more.

Look at what’s happening in other countries around the world. The awful situation with what Russia is doing invading Ukraine, and just the constant battles over pieces of land since the dawn of civilization.

Look at our health. One minute we’re fine. The next we’re facing cancer or who knows what. Look at our houses, one minute it’s there and the next minute there’s a fire, and it’s all gone.

Look at technology. One time, I couldn’t get into our website because a plugin had gone haywire, and that was blocking me from getting into our website. That’s a surprise. Nothing is stable. People aren’t stable. They’re wonderful. We love them, but they make mistakes. They don’t live forever.

Readers are wonderful, but they can be fickle. They can give you good reviews, bad reviews, who knows. Contracts come and go. The writing industry changes, there’s upheaval. It goes on and on.

But God is steady, secure, solid, eternal. You can hope in him. You can cling to him. You can trust in him. He is not going anywhere ever.

God is our rock.

God is the strong one who sees

Karen: Not only is God our rock, but he is El Roi. That is one of his names, and it means “the strong one who sees.” We see that first in Genesis 16:13. But in Psalm 3:3 it tells us, “But you, Lord, are a shield around me, my glory, the one who lifts my head high, you are my refuge and my shield: I have put my hope in your word.”

This God, who is our rock, and he is the strong one, he sees. He sees everything that we experience. Every joy, every disappointment, every difficult thing that we face, every triumph that we experience. God is there and he sees, and he’s the strong one. He’s almighty. Nothing is stronger than God.

No publisher is stronger than God. No readers, no reviews, no nothing. We are not stronger than God. When we start to question what we’re doing and if we’re doing it right, turn to God. He’s the strong one who sees you. He sees your disappointment. He sees your insecurity. He sees all of it and he will respond.

You never have to deal with anything on this writing journey alone, because God is there. He’s the strong one who’s almighty. He’s able, he’s capable, he’s willing. And he sees you. Never doubt that.

Erin: I love that because what would it matter if he was the weak one who sees you? Not helpful.

Karen: Yeah.

Erin: But the fact that he sees and is strong, now he can do something about what he sees. I love it.

God is our rewarder

Our next attribute is that God is our rewarder. Colossians 3:23-24 says, “Whatever you do, do you work heartily, as for the Lord and not for people, knowing that it is from the Lord that you will receive the reward of the inheritance. It is the Lord Christ whom you serve.”

It’s easy to see measures of earthly success, right? How many copies got sold? How many contracts we got or awards or reader reviews or whatever, whatever, whatever. But earthly success cannot be the measuring stick of our writing because how much weight are we going to put on giving somebody hope?

What is that worth in dollars? It’s just not. Dollars or sales or acclaim or whatever, that’s not the right measuring stick. Our job is to please God, to be obedient to him, and to work for the reward that only God can give.

I’m not saying it’s wrong to make money as a writer, because that might be your earthly job. But it’s God who provides that money because he knows your needs. And ultimately, God is the one who provides the reward we were all made for: heaven.

1 Peter 1:4 says, “We have a priceless inheritance—an inheritance that is kept in heaven for you, pure and undefiled beyond the reach of change and decay.”

That’s our reward, and guess what? No one can take it away because our Father gives it to us, and he keeps it safe.

God is a great king

The next thing that we want to talk about is that God is a great king. We talked previously in this series about God being sovereign, that he rules over all, and he works all things according to his plan.

But in thinking about God as king, what I want to highlight is respect. The reverence and honor that’s due to God as a great king. The greatest king.

In our culture, singers, TV stars, movie stars, professional athletes, billionaires, self-help gurus, gamers, even, yes, household-name authors, they are all given incredible status. At the same time, the King of the entire universe, the Maker of all reality, has his name tossed around in profanity. How many people don’t even believe their maker exists? That’s appalling.

I want us to take some time to think about how we treat God. His name, his reputation. How do we go about speaking to him or talking about him?

There’s still a queen in England. If she were coming to your house, how would you treat her? How would you pay attention to her or speak to her?

I mean, we’d probably figure we should stop what we’re doing and give her the time of day. It’s a whole different ballgame because she’s the queen. That’s the kind of reverence and awe that is sometimes missing in our interactions with God. We’re in danger of becoming too focused on God as our friend, which he is, but we forget to fear and revere him.

I love this verse in Malachi 1:14. It says, “But cursed be the deceiver who has in his flock a male, and takes a vow, but sacrifices to the Lord what is blemished.” In other words, not giving our best, right? “‘For, I am a great King,’ says the Lord of hosts, ‘and my name is to be feared among the nations.'”

Meditate on the respect and awe and honor that God deserves. How he deserves our best effort in everything. As a writer, as a person, this is what’s going to keep you humble and meek and service-oriented and focused on what truly matters in this life: on honoring our great King.

Karen: Amen.

God is the Lord of Hosts

Karen: There’s no better thing for us to do than to honor him because another name of God in Scripture is Yahweh Sabbaoth and that means “the Lord of Hosts.”

The hosts are considered the heavenly beings that God created. He is the Lord, the commander of heaven’s armies, heaven’s hosts.

According to Scottish preacher and expositor Alexander MacLaren, “By that title, ‘the Lord of hosts,’ the prophet and psalmist meant to express the universal dominion of God over the whole universe in all its battalions and sections, which they conceived of as one ranked army, obedient to the voice of the great General and Ruler of them all.”

So, how much is a host? How many people or how many heavenly hosts are there? Well, it talks about at the birth of Jesus, a multitude of the heavenly host. Scripture doesn’t specify how many, but if you look at Daniel 7:10 and Revelation 5:11, and if you take them literally, they both talk about 10,000 times 10,000, which equals a hundred million heavenly hosts serve the eternal.

It’s countless. It’s multitudeness. There’s no way to know how many, but I tell you what, it’s a whole lot more than any of the armies here on the earth.

Psalm 46:11 tells us, “The Lord of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress.”

Erin talked about the struggles in the world. There is a war on truth and righteousness and godliness taking place. There has been since the beginning of time, but in our time right now it seems to be intensifying, and it feels like righteousness and godliness and good and truth are losing.

The state of the world is clear evidence that there is a spiritual battle being waged and intensifying. But the wonder is that we don’t need to fear this battle or its outcome. Indeed, we are commanded to take part by appealing to God, the leader of heaven’s armies, the Yahweh Sabbaoth, and ask him to mobilize those heavenly armies to bring down evil.

Erin: Cool.

Karen: In our writing, we must stay faithful to God’s truth in what we put on paper. We cannot let the world force us to water down God’s truth. Will it be easy to stand like this? Of course not. When has war ever been easy?

But remember 2 Corinthians 10:3-5 says, “We are human, but we don’t wage war as humans do. We use God’s mighty weapons, not worldly weapons, to knock down the strongholds of human reasoning and to destroy false arguments. We destroy every proud obstacle that keeps people from knowing God. We capture their rebellious thoughts and teach them to obey Christ.”

We do that by calling on the Lord of hosts and asking him to mobilize his armies to attack and defeat evil. If we authors stand under pressure from publishers, if we feel like Davids facing Goliaths, then we can echo David’s words in 1 Samuel 17:45. Remember, David is just a kid when he’s looking at this giant. He’s facing this enormous Goliath, and what does he say to him? “You come against me with sword and spear and javelin,” or parenthetically, sensitivity readers and canceling contracts and demands in marketing, “but I come against you in the name of the Lord of Heaven’s Armies…”

Friends, you don’t have to be afraid. You don’t have to fear anything. You are a follower of Yahweh Sabbaoth and you can implore him and beseech him and ask him to mobilize those heavenly host, that army, in order to help us fight evil.

Jesus is the author and perfecter of our faith

Erin: The next thing we want to talk about is that Jesus is the author and perfecter of our faith. Hebrews 12:1-2 says, “Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.”

I love this translation because we’re authors and we can relate to what it means to author something. To Jesus being the author of our faith. Other translations say things like the pioneer, the founder, the leader, the source, originator, champion, initiator, maker of faith.

But Jesus did more than just make it. Word Biblical Commentary translates it like this: “The champion in the exercise of faith and the one who brought faith to complete expression.” That’s Jesus, the one who brought faith to complete expression.

Why is this important? Because it’s imperative that we keep our eyes on Jesus, who first designed this whole concept of faith, but then who also came to earth to demonstrate what perfect faith looked like.

Now, are we ever going to be perfect? No. But we have that picture to aim for in every step of our lives, through adversity and joy. And of course it’s not our own, right? But as the author, Jesus has this unlimited supply to share with us. He gives us faith. He builds our faith. He helps support our faith. That’s who he is as the author and perfecter of our faith.

God is one

Karen: Last but not least on our list today, God is one. He’s the only true God. There are no other gods who exist. They are false gods. There are no other gods beside him. He’s unique. Even these other gods that the world has created, that people have created, there is no other faith based on love and grace and sacrifice and redemption.

God is unique. There’s nobody else like him. In Isaiah 43:10 we see, “‘You are my witnesses,’ declares the Lord, ‘and my servant, whom I have chosen that you may know and believe me and understand that I am He. Before me know God was formed, nor shall there be any after me.'”

In Isaiah 44:8 it says, “Fear not, nor be afraid; have I not told you from old and declared it? And you are my witnesses! Is there a God besides me? There is no rock. I know not any.”

Then Ephesians 4:4-6, “There is one body and one spirit, just as you were called to one hope when you were called; one Lord, one faith, one baptism; one God and Father of all who is overall and through all and in all.”

One God. And you know what’s amazing? This unique, omnipresent, almighty, transcendent, utterly amazing, one unique God loves you. Loves you, and loves me, and has given everything to restore us to himself.

As we think about these attributes of God, I want us to end with Psalm 113. Listen and praise with me.

“Praise the Lord. Praise the Lord, you his servants; praise the name of the Lord. Let the name of the Lord be praised, both now and forevermore. From the rising of the sun to the place where it sets, the name of the Lord is to be praised. The Lord is exalted over all the nations, his glory above the heavens. Who is like the Lord our God, the one who sits enthroned on high, who stoops down to look on the heavens and the earth? He raises the poor from the dust and lifts the needy from the ash heap; he seats them with princes, with the princes of his people. He settles the childless woman in her home as a happy mother of children. Praise the Lord.”

Erin: Amen.

Karen: Amen.

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